Goodbye to my hubby Jan

 Goodafternoon everybody!

First I want to thank agin all that left me a comment with so many kind words. It is heartwarming to know that there are still a lot of wonderful people around.

And yes, last Monday I said goodbye to my Jan.

This were the flowers I gave him on his last voyage.

texte was simple: Jan.... given with love, Kyra

This was the front of the card of the announcement

I think the foto of the flowers doesn;t do them completely justice, I think the color is a little bit different, but it gives the idea.

Texte of the card short;

"Sooner than I thought I'll have to let my buddy go"

and then the usual information.

The ceremony was held in a very small and intimate place, just enough for a real small company. I let them play some music Jan liked very much, like nr.1 Non ho l'eta from Gigliola Cinquetti, then I held a small speech, then there was played Words from the Bee Gees( he adored the Bee Gees!) en during that song they showed some lovely foto's of Jan), then my best firend spoke some words, then there was the last song Gute Nacht Freunde, from Reinhard May and then everone gathered around Jan's coffin and did a last toast as goodbye. It was really moving.

Afterwards we gathered for something to drink and talk a bit and then everybody went home.The lady who arranged all for the funeral service did a great job, she was a very nice and caring person. 

Yes, of course it was a sad day, but I had peace with it how it all was arranged.

Then this week I think I am still in a kind of "surviving mode", there are quite some things that one has to take care of, most the official paperwork and telefone calls. A lot of things are done, but in the coming weeks I will still receive letters with things to answer etc. 

It's a strange feeling I have now. I cope rather well till now(I think), I am talking a lot to his foto at the moment, not feeling too sad. Perhaps I already felt it coming when he was moved to hospital this last time. And cried my heart out the moment he passed away and perhaps that was good as it was.

Oh there will be certainly moments I suddenly will miss him terribly, and shed a little tear but that will be okay too.

There is such a sweet thing happened, which I found very moving and I would like to tell this before I really finish this post. A few days ago I did send a little app to our plunber to let him know my husband has passed away. I also (may be strange to do so but I didn;t know what to do at that moment)asked him if he knew a reliable carpenter or locksman who could help me with my front door. Suddenly I couldn't lock it with my keys. Probably caused by frost or humidity, but very akward of course.

And later that afternoon someone was ringing at the door, there he was, my plumber to bring his personal condolances, have a short chat and to fix my door! Now I close and open it with my keys without any problem(and that is a great reassurance for me). But isn;t that sweet??? I was very grateful to him.

Good, for now I will finish, certainly I could tell more things, but that will have to wait. 

I wish you all a wonderful week to come and please, stay as healthy as you can .